Hindsight is 20/20
If I knew then what I know now
If I could turn back the hands of time
Ever wanted to go back in time?
I have experienced tremendous growth as a woman this year. Through it all, I am realizing that I am a woman of resilience. I bounce back quicker and emerge stronger. I love and forgive and I am learning that God made me to be different and I LOVE IT!
It wasn’t always so easy for me. If I could go back and tell Young Sepia a few words, here’s what I would say:
Dearest Young Sepia,
You are a beautiful creation. Love the dark skin that you are in.
Your worth lies in your heart and not between your legs. The boys you like may not like you back but don’t let their lack of vision lessen your value. One day, you will get it right. In the meantime, nourish the friendships you have. Embrace all that makes you unique. Take pride in your intellect; wave it like a banner. Being smart is in fact the sexiest thing you can be right now. Don’t beg for attention. Write down your feelings and tell others of your hurt but don’t be too vulnerable.
Despite what you hear everyone’s not doing it. If they are you don’t need to. You are special and worth the wait. Love does not hurt or lie or cheat or steal. It won’t make you do anything you don’t want to. Form your own opinions. Speak up for yourself. Be proud to be you.
In a few years, none of this will matter. There will come a day when you realize who your friends are. Some of them you don’t even know yet.
You will move to New York. Yes, New York! Just wait and see.
Sepia, remember to always tell the truth even if it hurts. Be respectful and confident. You can be wrong sometimes, too.
One day, you won’t worry about designer bags or name brand clothes or matching your shoes to your shirts. You will learn to run in high heels and love it!
Though you will give your heart away many times only a select few will know what to do with it. Only One will truly love you back. He’s been there all along but at twenty-two, you’ll finally hear His call.
Sepia, when you lift the veil of fear you will finally see real success. Trust your gut. Be different. Be a lady; seen and not heard. Let your light shine. Stand up for your beliefs even if that means standing alone.
Love you before you love anyone else. Don’t cry so much.
You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Trust me. You will get over Mike, David and Maurice. The seven years following college will shape you more than you know. Hold on. It will be a rollercoaster ride.
Young Sepia, as I close this letter, I want you to know:
1. Everyone can’t handle your dreams; share them sparingly.
2. God will become your closest friend.
3. Grandma was right about a lot. Listen closely.
Can’t wait to see what you become.
I Love You.
Sepia N. Brown